I’m having one of those days.
A day, where I woke up with an impending sense of doom.
Where I would just want to go back to bed, or binge watch my series. Where I would love to do literally anything, but what I supposed to do.
I had a period, where I was making myself busy on days like this, doing million things to feel a sense of productivity. Never worked. I just got tired and got so little done. Still, what I got done, was not moving me forward.
Then I had a period, where I tried to hide behind the idea, that I’m feeling like this, because I don’t know what the very next step should be, that can make me move forward. If you set out to the journey of getting to know yourself, most probably you’ve been there too.
Let me be a bit straight forward here.
99 percent of days like this is not because I don’t know, what should be the next step.
It is because I know it, and I don’t want to do it. The reasons I can come up with for that can differ from being scared to feeling bored of it, but the source of all is always the same:
Thinking going on, from moment to moment.
Us, artsy people, we love to make up beautiful explanations, why we don’t do things, we know we should.
Because:
We are waiting for inspiration.
We are not in the mood.
But the fact is, we have a sense for a deep truth:
We somehow know, that with willpower, it cannot work. For “outsiders” it might seem perfectly fine, what we create when we do if from willpower, but we know the truth. It smells like sweat, it is forced and just…
Heartless.
And all of this nerve-wrecking fuckery comes from the sheer fact, that we know so little of the creative process.
We have a feel for it, when we are already in it, but we know so little about it.
So on my next, free online workshop, that is what I would love to talk about.
How we get into “the zone” and what the hell is the creative process.
It will take place on Zoom, on 20/05/2021 from 18.30 GMT+2.
If this is something, that is tickling your curiosity, and you would fancy to join for the ride live, send an e-mail to theconnectionary@gmail.com and I will circle back to you with the access link to the Zoom call.
Hugs and love,
Andi.
Andrea Jacso 